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ok, i didn't stick to my plan..

now the teaching job's off, and i'm back to sakae bugis.. it's kinda sad actually, i do miss the kids.. should've taken their pics before i left.. now they're only just a memory..

so far, i've started at bugis for only 2 days.. actually i shouldn't be going back there, but maybe i just didn't want to change environment.. it felt quite good to see familiar faces anyway.. also, work shouldn't be much tougher since i'm already used to it.. haha.

btw, checked out ACCA courses last week.. ok, they're internationally recognised, but they may have a slightly higher tuition fee on the whole and it's more difficult than accountancy at ntu.. most of the students there take the ACCA course as an additional skill, for example, ntu students taking ACCA course part-time.. furthermore, even if i do get the degree, i'm not sure if i'll get a job easily with it.. seems like ntu degrees get u into a job faster, in singapore that is! gonna check out other alternatives soon, like university of london..

argh, what's gonna happen if i don't get into ntu? i mean, they're (local unis) not the only universities around, but it'll definitely make things easier if i did get in. argh argh argh. this is frustrating.

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oh, did i tell anyone i cried quite badly during Passion Of The Christ? hee...

oh well, work's been ok! am glad sakae work is over and that i'm quite enjoying myself at PCF Nee Soon Central's PAP Kindergarten.. currently helping some teachers with the nursery and K1 classes.. i'm not ready to take over the classes though, so i'm mostly observing lessons and all. so far i've learnt that kids can be real cute and mischevious.. and there are some who really do not deserve your sympathy. haha. there seriously exists spoilt brats who disgust me.. ugh. oh well, i'm wondering how long i'll be there.. i'm giving myself a few more weeks just to make sure i don't make a wrong decision. come to think of it, it's thanks to God that i managed to get this teaching job.. He's answered my prayers alright.. hee.

oh ya. i've also applied to work as a part-timer at Sakae.. again. this time it's bugis.. didn't really think of getting a second job after the kindergarten job, but recently i thought something bad was gonna happen so i had to save for a rainy day.. part-time over at sakae has not been confirmed, so meanwhile i'll jus continue teaching while waiting for bugis' news..

gonna return to choir as well.. seems like life's gonna be really busy huh. waiting for ira to go back for choir pract together.. and i gotta get ready for june's session as well.. hm, i should be able to juggle everything, i hope.

ooh, gotta check out ACCA about their courses as well.. i should be studying part-time while working.. cos i guess my chances at ntu's gonna be very slim.. might as well decide whether i'll be taking the accountancy course or the teaching course... yup, results are not good so i have to find alternatives, don't i?

okiez, gotta go soon. manager from bishan's leaving for the funan branch tomorrow, so tonight's the farewell party..

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ok. i've officially resigned from sakae sushi.. tendered on 2nd april, day after april fool's. i actually intended to resign on april fool's day, but i thought my manager wouldn't believe me.. ha. well, as i've told quite a lot of people, my last day of work will be on 16th april, this coming fri.. yays.

besides my resignation, there's a big thing that has happened.. i haven't told many people, and i don't really intend to announce it to everyone.. just feel like keeping it down and all, and wait till it has settled.. shhh for those who know..

now i have to start thinking about other stuff, such as my next job.. hm. i wonder what kind of experience a kindergarten teacher would get.. i dunno if there's still a place for me, but what i know is, my dad's friend who is the principal had offered me a chance to teach the kids at his kindergarten school.. (now i really see the wonders God can do) which is somewhere in yishun. i'm excited at the prospect of teaching the kids, especially my fav subs like math, art, or even english or chinese! it sounds like fun, but i'm sure teaching is not just about providing knowledge but also about passion and patience. for all i know, the kids could be so playful and rowdy they'd be giving me headaches everytime i see them.. haha. if there is really still a place for me at the kindergarten after my last day at sakae, i'm sure teaching will help me partly in choosing my career path: accountant or teacher. if i cant handle kinds nor teach with passion, i seriously won't consider teaching to be a career option. it's much too risky for kids to get a boring and she-doesn't-know-how-to-teach teacher. i vaguely remember a teacher from ij who told us that it's not the teachers who are important, it's yourself. it's only partly true, cos i feel that, without a teacher with love for teaching and love for the students, including having good communication skills and knowing how to teach (that's very important), most students wouldn't understand the subject.. at least for me, that is. (i better not mention names)

enough of my "teaching" thoughts.. btw, it's Easter Sunday already! Happy Easter everyone! we should rejoice for our Lord has risen! i feel that this yr, even though i've been buried in work, i've at least found time to prepare myself for Easter.. through Lent, even though it was kinda last minute this yr, i managed to do my reflections and confession. i'm the lazy kind who goes for confession when the time calls for it.. i admit that. but this yr, it feels kinda special. after confession (or rather, penance) i felt more relieved and sorta felt like i was a new me. even though the confession lasted shorter than the previous yr, i'm glad i put my heart into it, especially the prayer after. i've come to know it's the amount of effort we put into trying not to sin that counts.. to feel guilty about our sins are not enough, cos we can't keep giving ourselves the excuse that "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak" so that we can continue to sin. we have to remember our faults and make sure we try our best not to sin.. that is how i feel i can prepare myself.. if i truly love the people around me, i wouldn't keep hurting them, in either words, thoughts or deeds.. sounds familiar eh..

hm, that reminds me of "Passion of the Christ".. will blog abt it next time round.. gotta catch sleep or else i won't be able to catch the 11am mass tom with archie.. haha. oops. i mean the archbishop.. zzzz...

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been thinking alot lately.. about work, about school (applications, that is), about family, about my faith.. maybe it's because i'm not making enough time for God, that's why things don't seem so right. yet God has been helping me in mysterious ways..

i went for Praise and Worship session (it was great and everyone truly enjoyed it), some of the songs got me thinking, and i thought i got depressed for a while.. well, God answered my prayers. uncle david came down and we chatted for quite a while, and he asked me how i was doing and all.. so told him about my grades and he gave me all the advice i needed with regards to uni decisions. only a few days before session i actually wrote a letter to Mother Mary asking her for help and her prayers, and even though i havent sent it, i'm almost thoroughly relieved that my problems are solved.

one down, many more to go..

recently i've started to realise that perhaps sakae isn't the job for me. i've spent all of my energy and commitment on work and all it has was take me away from God and my family. i mean, the money is useful, i can help relieve my parents on the financial side, etc. but i realise i cant make it down for sessions, meetings and even stations of the cross during this yr.. i'm still in a dilemma.. was supposed to hand in resignation letter yesterday, but i thought i let my colleagues and asst manager talk me out of quitting so soon. i tell myself i'll work for another week or so, if things are still going bad i'll have to resign, no matter who says what. besides, my mom has been bugging me to find another job, but sometimes it's not that easy, and i don't think she understands me on this point. much has happened ever since collection of A's results..

i suddenly feel i'm at one of my greatest turning point in my life.. everything jus seems so tense, my decisions are a mess, here and there, not complete, not firm enough. the pressure is starting to add onto me, and i feel like i need a shoulder to lean and cry on..

there was another incident that happened this week.. on the night before i wrote the letter to Mother Mary, my dad atarted throwing all the dinner and whatever was on the table to one corner of the kitchen. i didnt witness it, cos it happened like 5 mins before i returned home from work, but it was a damn big mess. glass and porcelain all over the kitchen floor and both my mom and my brother were jus cleaning everything up. i was momentarily stunned at what my dad did. i mean, he never ever threw things before and i think job has drove him to a limit.. probably not jus job alone cops my mom was nagging at him for not guiding my bro to get his freaking hands off the keyboard. everytime i think of my family now, i have tons of problems pooping up in my mind.. my dad and his work, my mom gving me stress, my brother refusing to wake up from his addiction to the com..

i just feel somehow, helpless. and undecided. perhaps God will clear the road for me..

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phew. seems like i'm bloggin for the first time in my life.. hee.
i seemed to have left my blog hanging ever since work became a part of my life.. and i'm not sure if i like it..
i think work has left other responsibilities hanging as well..
btw, for those whom i havent told, i've been transferred to the Bishan outlet. it's been almost a week since i've started work there.. first few days at Bishan had been HELL. seriously, i missed Bugis and the peeps there like crazy.. work would be so different without them.. and mu..

well, i dunno if i can survive this week. if i can, it sure means i'll be permanently situated at Bishan, and goodbye to Bugis..

oh no, results coming out next week. i have a bad feeling i'm going to retake my A's.. or rather a premonition.. -shrug- i'm hoping to enter uni though..

ok, gotta go work soon.. (again)

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-sigh- i'm tired. sleepy. muscles aching. toes hurting.
i wonder why today was such a taxing day at work.. perhaps it's a public hol, but we've been through that before.. i mean those busy times.. i'm surprised that all of us had gotten so tired by dinner time.. maybe because there weren't that many people today..

and i'm still depressed. and i haven't got the guts to tell my mom. and i won't be clubbing for about a month at least (most probably, unless i can get over it so quickly). this is so exasperating. i pray my stuff could be found... $200 freakin plus bucks, when will i ever earn it back? plus all the sentimental stuff?!?!?!

i do not want to think anymore. i'm going to sleep.

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ok.. so what's wrong with the shoutbox????? playing hide-and-seek?

hm, actually i don't exactly feel like blogging.. but since i'm online.. i mean rarely online...

there's nothing i can talk about mostly, except work, nowadays. and work's been... work. quite fun in a way i get to know new people, although 90% are younger.. -_- it makes me, i dunno, feel younger? think younger? talk younger? i'm definitely not a 19 year old at work.. haha. all of them never thought i'd be 19.. (ok so do i really look that young? cant be the new hairdo) but we click well, all of us are united against one person.. one of the manager trainee aka Pighead or Spiky, etc. -lol- yesterday, we were even suggesting a riot against him.. haha. hm, i feel especially chatty during work, probably cos it tends to be kinda boring when there's no one in the restaurant (the bugis outlet is considered large-scale) and for eg, yesterday, there were like 10 staff to 2 customers for a short period of time.. gee. but don't get the idea that the place is always that empty.. cos we often get full-house in the evening.. and for those working the closing shift (2.30-11.30pm) like me.. will have to get real busy..

i wonder when's the test.. i definitely have to excel it of cos, or i'll get the sack. haha.. anyway the test was supposed to be on tue.. but it's already fri.. hm. and i wonder when mu and i will be transferred to the toa payoh outlet.. actually i won't mind if we don't, cos i've grown to like the bugis outlet.. with xiao pei our supervisor and alex our asst manager.. maybe i should ask xiao pei whether i could stay.. heh. since bugis is not really that far for me.. (even though mu and i have been discussing how we can walk or cycle to toa payoh if we were transferred there >_<)

ok, enough talk.. it's my off day today and i'm not spending every min in front of the com! i'm going out!

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Happy Chinese New Year's Eve everyone.. (even though it doesn't feel like CNY to me..) wonder why the new year spirit hasn't permeated the air this year? maybe it's because most of my friends are working, and i'm not looking forward to going to my paternal relative's house.. hmph. what does CNY really mean? new clothes? ang baos? spring cleaning? or does it entail being nicer to people around you, especially your loved ones.. doing a bit of sacrificing for them and such.. just food for thought..

funny that CNY feels so much different this year.. no trips to chinatown, no one coming over to my place, i'm not even feeling excited.. worse thing is, SAT is on 2nd day of CNY.. to add on to that i gotta go for work... -sigh- now it's work, work and more work. no more crazy shopping, watching movies, free afternoons.. just work. and maybe no more sessions.. but i'll try to get a morning shift on a fri..

oh yea.. work means no more clubbing as well.. but there's a chinablack party this sat.. but i'm night shift.. hm.. contemplating..

hm.. i've survived a week at Sakae.. so far so good.. except for a fall a few days ago and yesterday's closing. tiring is not even enough to describe how i felt after that.. but i won't quit. i've decided to stay till june/july and i will do it, but not necessarily full-time.. if i can't juggle work and church at the same time, i'll opt for part-time, even if it means less pay.. i felt bad for not being able to attend last week's core team meeting, but i hope i won't have to miss the next one.. camp's coming up as well, and i don't have much idea about what i'm assigned to do.. hmm.. sometimes work really takes the time and life out of you..

oh talking about work.. i met Peiwei at far east yesterday. mu, weiling and i were shopping for auyong's present, then i realised Peiwei was working part-time at Blizz.. somehow almost everyone's having an easier job than mine.. -sob- well, i ended up buying a bottle of moisturiser from her.. haha. (c'mon, who doesn't know my weakness?)

-sigh- the only thing on my mind now should be SAT.. argh. which i'm totally unprepared for. jan 24th never seemed so near before..

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whee! guess who i had lunch with yesterday!! i was with Sharn.Sharn!!! we were supposed to meet at wheelocks at 1.15pm.. i was late as usual.. oops. >_< anyway! we squeezed into a very crowded N.Y.D.C., and talked and talked and talked.. and of cos ate and ate.. haha. this lunch is truly one of the best i ever had!! thanx sista! -big hug- and we're so going back there again right? (we have to have the desserts the next time...)

oops! i totally forgot to post the good news.. not wonderful, but good.. yup. I'M EMPLOYED! starting training this coming tuesday.. for 2 weeks.. after i graduate (i assume i'll be! :P), i'll be posted to the toa payoh branch.. Sakae Sushi. yays. it pays ok.. ok job better than no job! anyway i need the experience, as much as possible! i was quite nervous when i spoke to mona yesterday.. cos i had to commit till july and the job required me to work on the weekends.. and both shifts cut right into choir.. my nerves were uncalled for anyway.. mona's always an understanding choir mistress..

oh yea.. back track to fri.. had a really great time with jo and ira! we went back to ij to visit the teachers.. but we were quite a distraction cos we were searching the whole sec 3 and 4 blocks for ms jac yip.. every class we passed i saw familiar faces, basically cos three-quarters of the female population in CYF and choir are in ij tp. hahaha. i'm not kidding. thereafter we found ms jo teo walking briskly towards her staff room.. she really lost a lot of weight! too bad she was rushing to class, or we could've grabbed her for a chat.. and we did find ms yip.. except she was rushing off to class as well.. that's for visiting ij during school hours.. anyway, we went up to the general office and ended up chatting for an hour or so with our principal ms theodora tan.. -sigh- my stomach was already growling like mad at that time, but all that talk actually made me forget i was freakin hungry.. of cos, we left ij determined to get good food.. (no point eating at ij canteen cos the old stalls were no longer there. otherwise, chiong the canteen food man) yays. swensons fish and chips was heavenly.. and the light mint sundae (with fudge...yum!) after that was just... drooo-licious.. we went to the one at ps btw. we had hoped to go to Fish and Co's, but it's ok.. we'll leave it for next time.. heh.

CYF: it was movie night for session.. everyone packed into the hot and humid CYF room (new aircon fittings weren't up yet) to watch "Dancing with the wolves".. which was one movie which i didn't quite get.. it was fun to watch the part about the red indians though.. it was basically a serious show with a little humour here and there.. i think the younger members weren't ready to understand the show, and i guess some of them were probably dozing off..(maybe until the red indians part haha) it was good nonetheless, even though i didnt get the whole story.. most probably gonna show the remaining movie next week after the session by Les, G bear, Kel and me.. we'll be presenting our pilgrimage to Rome! whee! exciting...

eeks. jus realised i haven started preparing for SAT on 24th.. argh. i think i'm gonna miss a day of training.. if there is training on saturdays.. weird huh. SAT on a SATurday. heehee.

well, guess that's about it for the week.. wonder why i'm not blogging much.. basically cos i cant even get the stupid com.. haha. gotta pry my bro off the com to use it.. serious. yesterday, i waited for my bro to get off the com till i fell asleep.. it's so what-the.. maybe i should seriously start making a roster. but as if he'll stick to it.... argh.

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-hyperventilating-
i'm still excited from the butt-numbing, action-filled, noise-inspiring (only from me actually), last-part-of-the-trilogy tolkien movie.. LOTR - Return of the King!!!! i'm sorry for those who've watched it a million times since it's grand opening on... wad, 18 dec '03? well, i've FINALLY watched it TODAY!! (ok, call me a loser, whatever.. -roll eyes-) haha.. i've adopted this habit of asking lots of questions like "does the undead soldiers come after this???" or "why the hell is smeagol not dead yet?!" and then "omg! look at that! legolas is so handsome..." (at the part where he coolly slid off the elephant's trunk) -drool- and "omg! aragorn looks good too!" i think steph was super bugged by me, but oh well, what's done cannot be undone.. haha. i HAVE to get the dvd for LOTR man...

oh yea.. here's wishing shamu a very Happy (though belated) Birthday!!! i'm such a shithead for not wishing u on time.. sorry! fyi, i've known mu since.. we were born?!?! something like that yea.. cos we used to be neighbours and our moms knew each other.. and we've played together ever since.. whee.. mu and i have gone a long way.. from childhood neighbours to tuition mates, to ij mates, then to jogging/gym kakis (is this how it's spelled?).. she's always been there for me.. love ya mu! we gotta go gym sometime yea? :) cos i've been missing gym ever since i came back from rome.. argh. (oh yea, mu! i was so touched when u and ur mom sent me off at the airport! thankyou so much! -muackz-)

btw, onto a sad note.. i'm still JOBLESS. i consider that a disaster since my mom's been hounding about this.. i was so mad at her yesterday for scolding me about not getting a job. i was like wad the?!?! i've applied for 3 jobs already and she makes it sound like i havent even tried. i was so hurt by her words. she jus doesnt understand it sometimes, and she doesnt even think before she speaks.. (sounds like someone huh? haha.. joking) and she seems to be forcing me to get employed.. hey i'm not my own boss u know.. she jus makes it so difficult for me.. so far i've only told steph (i think) about my new year resolution.. if things are gonna get worse, i dunno how i'm gonna fulfill it. -pulls hair-

hm.. onto happier stuff.. (ok, not exactly happy, but ya) chinese new yr's coming! i hope mom/dad decides to buy the purple sofa case! and maybe we should start repainting some parts of the house where the paint is peeling.. and to really clean up the house.. to welcome the new yr! maybe to rearrange the furniture as well.. i hate it when people walk past our house and see everything that goes on in the living room AND the kitchen.. no privacy at all.. (nope! we're not closing the door! it's getting hot in here.. so take off... ahem) maybe i should do what steph has done for her door.. hang something to cover.. si? no? argh. my house needs a revamp!! my room needs a revamp!!

actually i'm quite excited for new yr.. i always have the notion that we should get new stuff.. haha. like a new hairstyle? new clothes? new shoes? some new furniture? new attitude towards life? new responsibilities??? something along this line... now that i'm onto new yr.. was thinking about having a chinese new yr party at my place.. wasnt really (actually, not at all) keen to visit some relatives.. and i guess it's either cyf or A51.. now that's a difficult decision.. but that is if my mom has no objection to it.. haha.

so... wait for the good news yea? if i'm lucky i may get both cyf and A51 to come.. haha.

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Happy New Year's Eve everyone!
today's gonna be a good day!
gonna celebrate the new yr 2004 with a bang at sean's place! red wine anyone?? hee.
oh yea, went for sam fern's house for dinner yesterday! her mom's a great cook btw.. you couldnt get enough of the nasi lemak and devil's curry! -lick lips-
and thanx sam once again for the present! i'm going to be super sparkly from now on! :P

well, i'm stuck at home now, rotting away.. desperately wanting to catch LOTR with no success, cos everyone else seems to have watched it long ago... (while i was enjoying in rome) gee, talk about opportunity cost man. gotta catch School Of Rock as well man! hm, what's in for Scary Movie 3, really?

ok, so i said i'd be uploading rome pics.. but the stupid msn jus hasnt enough space for thee precioussssss pics.. and i've failed to post up the grad night photos.. oh no, i'm such a nut at the com.. maybe i should try yahoo..

oh well, i applied for a job yesterday. (finally) hope they call me asap and employ me! >_< otherwise i'm back to square one.. talking about jobs, i ever wondered about getting one at a club.. it'll be fun! except it means late nights, and parents' disapproval i guess.. haha. they're not that enthu about me clubbing anyway.. and talking about clubbing.. monday night was a rrrreal party! lotsa j1s i suppose, but who cares when there's great music? as usual it's at chinablack.. this time much better than the last.. this is probably one of the last few parties i'm attending.. that is if i get the job.. sob. kinda sad eh? haha. the funniest thing was, i managed to stay awake, cos ltc happened to end that evening at 5plus.. it's a wonder i could climb out of bed and into chiong-ing stuff.. lol.

speaking of ltc, it's been a wonderful experience. no doubt we were sleepy-eyed half the time through the intensive sessions, nevertheless events of the camp were deeply etched into our minds. the sessions we had: history of the church, aims of cyf, planning skills, presentation skills, calling "lester's dad", having our meals together (popiah!), p&w, POW, operations COJO and JOCO (haha), the knock-it-downs.. i'm sure the team has gotten to know each other relatively better, but we still need lotsa work on that.. last but not least, great big thanx to everyone on the team: sean (BOSS), isabelle (though absent but i'm sure she was spiritually with us!), seb, darren, shawn, kel, sam, kirstin, elsa, joachim and ethelbert, and the advisors and leaders: tee, les, cally, colin, g-bear, jon, lai, and uncle david who came to visit us.. thanx for all the guidance, the lessons, advice, and inspiration.. i'm sure the core team 2004 will make it through all of your help!

a personal thought.. stepping up already takes a lot of guts, but loving the members takes even more. it's definitely not easy.. u gotta put in effort to love every single one of them, even if your opinion of any of them could change for the worse throughout the yr, even if you are afraid of the person.. selflessness, that's what it is. would i be able to achieve even a little of that? setting a good example to the members? consistently throughout the yr? i know everything will fall into place as long as i put God first, but we always have worries since we're not perfect. leadership is actually quite stressful when it comes to serving. as it is said, the first will be the last.. just as jesus stooped down to wash his disciples feet, we have to humbly serve our members.. well, in the first place, leadership was never about who did what better and who was always the first.. as long as whatever we do, we do with God in our heart and with love and sincerity.. that's the most important. and another thing is to be true to ourselves. that means a lot as well.. well, that's how i feel at least. since i've not done much reflections before and after ltc, it's about time i did it.. so.. yup.

ok, gotta end off.. lunch is here!

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hey all!!!!!! i'm back from ROME!!!!! no simple words can describe my trip i tell u.. it's great, wonderful, fulfilling, fun, amazing, breath-taking... and these still dont do Rome any justice! lester, sherwin, gilbert, kelvin, josephine and i spent a good one week in rome, and Assisi on the last night... i really dunno what to say! i snapped tons of pictures, and mine wasnt even the most... not pro pics, but i'll try to upload them all the same (dont worry, this time my com is not gonna screw up and kill the pics, and plus g-bear has kindly burnt them into a cd so they're safe!) whee! we visited the main basiilicas such as St Peter's, St Paul's, St John's, etc. the Pantheon, the Vatican Museum, and so on. will name them as i upload the pics k? cos it's getting damn late and i've ltc later in the morn... eeks.

just to let everyone dear know i'm back home safely! the plane trip back home was in fact quite uncomfortable, and the food not as delectable, but nonetheless, it didnt make the trip any less fun! (provided i bought a bottle of duty-free baileys at the airport! :P) btw it was a 9hr ++ flight from rome to bangkok, then another 2hr ++ back to singapore.. phew-whee. i'm glad the flights are over. aww man, i miss Rome... (i've promised myself i'll go back again sometime, probably with family) there's just to much to tell! anyone interested to see the pics asap can come over to my place or something! i did quite a few videos on my cam too :) (should have done more actually)

one more thing. to everyone, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! some people would've gotten the cards late cos i wrote them in rome and i just sent them tonight.. haha. i'm so sorry about that. anyway, christmas somehow felt a little different this yr.. maybe a little quieter?? maybe it was because i was damn jet-lagged that i couldnt sense the christmas spirit? (well, i came back from the airport, unpacked, then met steph in town) ended kinda sleepy-headed.. but managed to pull through midnight mass.. cheers to Christus Laudatur Voce Choir for their well done pageant! except for the batteries that went dead half way through mona's song!! lol. the dancers were great too, though kinda stiff (definitely from the nerves yea) gave out presents after mass.. (did the last min shopping after i came back.. eeps) i'll have to try to do something for everyone next yr man, feel bad about missing out quite a lot of people for the presents.. >_< oh yea, it was sam koh's house this yr again for christmas! it's a cyf tradition for a member to open up his or her house for all the peeps to go and celebrate, eat, etc, and stay over.. if they want to. it was good cos sam's place, which is at Riverwalk apartments, has a open floor area at the 5th storey, where there's a pool, pavilion, bbq area and tennis area! big space for us to wander around.. it was fun, though once again kinda quiet, not too much people.. when i reached there i regretted wearing my thin and sleeveless top.. the wind was so strong! luckily greg lent me his jacket.. and i dozed off while listening to colin's lame jokes 2003.. haha. remind me to tell them next time!

ok, that's about it for christmas night.. gotta catch some sleep now before i oversleep for 6.30am mass later! >_< ciao!

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OH-MY-GAWD.
u can never imagine how it feels like to be in the indoor stadium, sitting in with a million other fans, lights all on, anxiously waiting for THE MAN to appear. and u can never imagine, going for a concert without buying the light sticks?!?! that's what mimi and i did. -_-" we were squirming about in the east wing, middle row at the side, at 8.25pm (concert supposedly starts at 8). Then it came. HE came. the scene was just absolutely spectacular, light sticks (of all sorts: standard ones, starwars light sabre lookalike ones, those with spinning lights... u name it, the fans have it) waving wildly welcoming THE MAN himself: DAVID TAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! his voice was just so lovely, so mesmerising.. rising above the high-pitched screams and the thunderous applause... and he looked soooooooo goooooooood. absolutely stunning. when he appeared, mimi and i went crazy. at that point in time, we badly wanted to join those fans in the front seats. argh. we couldnt reach him unless our arms were 30-50m long.. he rocked the stage man, from his lovely ballads to rock hits.. he did it. (it was a pity he didnt go topless, haha) great band, great music, great voice, great TAO ZHE. even his fans from other parts of the world flocked in to watch him! china, HK, japan, england, australia, malaysia... he even managed to spot one fan who went for every single one of his concert.. that is a true blue david tao fan! -sigh- wish we all had that money to tour with him around the world man.. oh yea, of cos we knew who the guest singers were: TENSION! mimi screamed for Raymond while i screamed for John, haha. felt like i was about 5 years younger. anyway, the way the fans screamed "encore" and stomped the indoor, while chanting "DAVID, DAVID, DAVID, DAVID.." was just too cool for words. of cos he had to turn up again! he sang the last few songs, which kept us up and singing along... phweeeet. we so didnt wanna leave. hence, when the concert ended at about 11pm, we reluctantly left (to catch the last buses obviously :P) about two and a half hours of pure blissssss. how about that man. we were super pathetic though. the perhaps once in a lifetime david tao concert we attended and we DIDNT bring a cam. how could we have forgotten?!?!?!?! wonder if we could contact any david tao fans and ask them for some photos.. haha. that would be superb man. maybe that's a sign for mimi and i to go for his other concerts.. he did say "see you next year!", didnt he? :)

the only sad thing was i killed my throat while screaming for David Tao.. suspected myself to have contracted tonsilitis (is it spelled this way?) since sat night, so my throat hurts like hell now. going to see the doc soon. verrrrry soon. argh. there goes all the fried and spicy food... hope my throat recovers before departure for rome.

which reminds me to countdown: 6 more days to rome!!! whee! gotta go to novena on sat for confession before i leave, since it's a pilgrimage, and it's Advent now. preparation for Christmas! i havent bought any prezzies yet, though the christmas tree is up.. it looks like there's something missing though. -shrug-

oh yea, yesterday was leader's prep meeting as well. it went well, and i've decided to step up. no more indecisiveness and worries. i'm praying for more potential CYF leaders to step up as well. it's true about what the advisors shared yesterday. (hey les, what u said about tee's words stuck to me as well :) ) as long as u love responsibly, u are up to serve. i always have worries about not setting a good example (does that mean clubbing is out? O_o) and not reaching out to members, but since les used to have that problem as well, and if he can overcome it, why cant i yea? -determined- it's a good opportunity to contribute to the church community again.. since i only stepped up for a few months during sec4..

quite nervous for this fri's AGM actually.

ok, gtg for breakfast then to the doc.. tralalala... (euphoria from yesterday's concert still not washed away)

prom's night's over.
and i dunno wad to say about it...
just happy and awkward times. haha. lotsa photo-taking, smiles, food, laughters, weird and quite irritating sound effects, and over-reaction.. hmmm..
wished i had dressed up more actually.. haha. until now i'm stil kinda thinking about that warehouse dress.. hahaha.
damn.
and probably the whole of A51 knows i took photos with him. hahaha. (glares at jason)
well, what's done cannot be undone.
and the clubbing after that made up for some of the discomfort.

SOS..... not a bad place on a weekday? super empty i can say.. it was more of a cj-sa night.. didnt have as many drinks as i had imagined, and danced like nobody's business.. blissss. after a long absence of clubbing, i guess my alcohol tolerance has fallen. but i still love lychee martini though!

we walked all the way to lau pa sat after that, legs aching by then. i ate like nobody's business, and ended up looking 3-4 months pregnant.. argh. food's always a sin. back at the hotel, carmy, zai, eugene, andrea, jason, and i (with hazel in MIA mode, cher sleeping and angie watching) were playing the game similar to that of prom night, except we didnt have peanut butter, soy milk, pineapples, coke, or potato chips.. just a bottle of vodka. haha. i think andrea and jason drank most of it... pwheeet. i didnt wanna drink.. not really me yea? lol. i'm known for relatively high alcohol tolerance actually.'. annie's become a good gurl! hohoho.. not to mention carmy and zai got high after the vodka.. haha. they were giggling like mad...

anyway, we didnt fall asleep till around 7am.. then my hp rang non-stop with the sms ringtone.. hahaha. now u know samsung phones can be damn irritating ;P (out of point but i'm fascinated with the new samsung E700!!!!!)

now, i'm just spending my entire week and the next reading all the library books my hands can get hold of!! jill mansell, jane green, sophie kinsella, olivia goldsmith, bring it on! haha. fiction-deprived for the past year i guess? i'm addicted to the books.. finished 3 out of 4 in just 2 days.. gosh. is there such a thing as craving for books? but fiction of cos..

hm. away from books. countdown: 8 more days to departure for rome! whee! and i just remembered david tao's concert is just tomorrow!! eeeeowwww! geez, i almost forgot about it >_<

oh ya, cant wait to see steph next sun! er although it's the day of departure but i'm only leaving at night. so gonna spend the day with her before i leave! yays! -jumps- ^_^ havent seen her for months... i miss her sooo much...

really, tis the season to be jolly! :P

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oh my gawd. i just wanna thank angie and cher so much!! i love u 2!! and dith!!! i'd love to shower a million kisses on u!! thank you all so much for coming down yesterday night... u've all melted my heart..... :)

btw, i thought yesterday night was great, with the skits and all! didn't had such a great laugh in a while.. though the band was not perfect and all, but i thought we were pretty good! credit goes to the whole band: judette, joachim, jem, sean, g-bear, sebastian and sam! whee! it was quite a pity the crowd wasn't hyped up.. or we could've gone even more wild.. just nerves i guess.. haha. esp that this IS the first time i'm singing in a band.. look forward to more of these!

oh yea, there was just so much fooooood... yummylicious. not to mention that after clearing up, some of us headed down to Lor 5 to finish up some of the leftovers!!!! geez. only after i rubbed my bulging belly did i realise prom night's only 3 days away... DARN. hope i can still fit into the dress >_< well, walked home with jem after that, but it didn't help much at digesting the food.. haha. it was a good half hour walk nonetheless..


um, went for interview today... it's that valuair co.. and they were only looking for FLIGHT ATTENDANTS today. geez. sorry, i fulfil height requirement but not the SIZE requirement.. if i did, i sure would've gone for it! haha. ended up signing a job form at starbucks.. hope they need me there soon! haha. hols without work sure is torturing.. with all the events coming up that sure burns holes in pockets. anyway, went over to jem's place to chill for a while, then they (namely sam, gerald, sebastian and jem of cos) hopped over to my place (fyi jem lives opp my blk).. chips, pepsi twist and bluff. nice combi eh... haha. they left about an hour ago.. well. it's always nice to have some friends over to chill sometime! :)

yays. if i'm not working, heck. shall enjoy myself on tue at sentosa... again. this time with cyf! it's gonna be fun, but not like what jem said: tan from 10 to 11-ish, makan till 4, then start tanning again till 6. cos i said the best time to tan is about 9-10-ish am and 4-6 pm. gee. we'll skip the makan till 4 part yea.. haha. wonder where the vball part fits in.. hmm.. i should just stay in the shade and read some book... absolute blisssssss.

well, just hope i don't get too tan that my mom faints at the sight of me.. haha. she likes me to have a fair complexion, the fairer the better.. weird. i always liked to have a little tan, seems healthier that way.. well, gotta trim off that bulge before tue! arg!

oh no, that means not too much drinks on mon night.. beer belly.. eeeeeee. haha.

wheee... 29th nov... it's DEE day! going down to church for last prep at 4... and i think i'm supposed to go to NTUC to buy the pasta ingredients and stuff. but heck. i need to enjoy my morning! ^_^
was kinda worried when the alarm woke me up cos my throat felt kinda dry. *panic* if i get a sore throat today, i'm soooo gonna DIE. >_<

hmph. remember the job interview? arghhhhh! the guy who told me to turn off yesterday was actually absent. darn. i'm supposed to be pissed off, but what can i do, i'm the interviewee... then my mom made some sickening remarks which were so not encouraging. some parents always have SOME things to say in EVERYTHING. hm. and my mood was half-spoilt THIS MORNING about dad tryin to pull me down for some other job interview. it's not that i don't wanna go today, i'm not free at all! and tomorrow.. if i finish mass at 12.. the interview stops at 4.. and it's a walk-in.. i most probably won't get the chance.. geez. and my mom had to dig out all those "my friend's daughter could find such a good-paying job" kinda shit. oh fuck off. this shit really pisses me off like hell. i'd like to find my job in peace THANKYOU. stop saying that u gave me pocket money for nothing this past 12yrs. it's YOUR responsibility to take care of your children dammit. don't u ever dare push the blame on us. if u want me to contribute to this family, tell me nicely. don't use those sarcastic and condescending-i-gotta-put-u-down remarks. and i'm entitled to use my pocket money in any way i want, u have the authority to restrict the amount but you don't have the authority to restrict what i spend on u $#@%(*&^$#$@!. nothing good happens when i tell my parents something. i regret telling them i was going to look for a job. *curses myself*

see, my day was supposed to start off well, but look at it. just look at it. it's super sad. and that !$#^*$#% can go on about that stupid topic for at least a day, raking up the issue every few minutes. my ears are beginnning to rot from being exposed to those explicit words. now, how am i gonna have a peace of mind tonight?!

just as i thought things were starting to look better, they didn't. this month is really not the month for me. this is getting me pessimistic about the Rome trip. i'm sure some people will somehow spoil the last few days before i go off. shit. i don't wanna continue that thought.

well, enough of complaints. i originally intended for this entry to be a happy one, but bad stuff can never be ignored. i'm wondering when i can go shopping again! really need to buy lotsa stuff before going off.. and i'm still waiting for the assist manager to call me.. things not looking very good now. no job, no money, cant buy stuff. mom sux, cant buy stuff. eventually, cant buy stuff. sorry people, no christmas presents then. haha. i'll work out a way. i'll just go rob a bank or something.. -_-

tis the season to be (not) jolly.. falalalala la la la laaaaaaaaaa....

mmmm... the joy of waking up late and knowing that you don't have school.. haha
here i am, having my brunch while whacking the keyboard...
nice days could go on forever... BUT, i have a job interview afterwards..
it's not that i dread the interview, it's just that i havent had proper sleep for the past few days.
AND i'm genuinely excited about the interview *prays hard* i really hope i'll get the job..

well, besides the job interview, tomorrow's CYF Night!!!! woohoo! we're gonna rock the stage man. luckily with God's help, the band has managed to finish our pract, or rather, scrape through. so far, i've only attended.. 4 practices.. haha. nonetheless it's gonna be great! ^_^

time's passing real fast suddenly, next week's prom night already! gee, so many events, so little money on me.. whoa, i dunno if i can survive this.. plus, i've been persuaded to go for 1st dec's Chinablack.. argh. money no enough man.. then there's David Teo's concert on 7th dec!! it's finally coming.. after that it's beautiful Rome.. ahhhhhhh.....

events-packed 2 weeks.. and after i return from Rome, christmas eve! i wonder if i'll have enough sleep.. haha. there seems to be hardly any time to get presents and cards! oh well, tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...

oh ya! did i mention! an hons, yans, mimi and i went shopping yesterday.. whee.. i bought my christmas top.. haha. love it to the core. still wondering about the christmasey top though! hmmmm.. to buy or not to buy... that is the question. oh yea, sammy (an's husband!) came afterwards! hahaha.. yans, mimi and i had a super fun time teasing em.. wheeheehee.. couldn't help it la hons, too bad u 2 weren't wearing shirts of the same colour.. or else! it would've been worse. HAHAHAHA. :P

nothing's gonna put me down cos.. tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...